It's been awhile since I've sat down, opened up, and let the words flow.
Most posts are written in pieces and edited and I hit the backspace button too frequently. I tweak my eyebrows, doubt my thoughts too much to put them into words, then hit close in defeat. But not today. I think today I'll write with abandon just for once, because I've had too many things on my mind. So I won't care too much about my paragraph order, or if everything looks orderly enough for my picky self. Today, I'll just write, be honest, and leave it at that.
I am a passionate woman - passionate about marriage, motherhood, parenting, and living a healthy life. I struggle with two things, though. The first is finding things to write about that someone else hasn't already written. Every day I find inspiring posts from inspiring writers/bloggers. Amazing food bloggers write about all the holistic topics I love. Mommy bloggers write about what it feels like to parent a toddler and when to give yourself grace and what it feels like when you need a break. Other moms write about parenting philosophies that I wholeheartedly believe in, and I'm left wondering what I have to offer. Everyone else has "beat me to it" and I'm afraid of being boring or unoriginal.
Secondly, I struggle with writing honestly about my opinions because I've gotten a lot of negative feedback from people in my life and sharing my thoughts scares me. I've got so many posts floating around in my head - topics I've really been wanting to write about...things like why we don't believe in spanking or cry-it-out, our overall parenting philosophies, my dreams for our future homestead, what we've learned about traditional foods, just to name a few! As you can see, a few of those aren't easy topics to write about. I've struggled between leaving all of those things in my personal life and not addressing them unless someone asks me questions, and writing about them, because they are such a huge part of our lives right now and that's what this blog is about- sharing my life. When I'm passionate about something, I love sharing it with others, even if all I accomplish is helping them see a different perspective.
I've really been trying to work through this lately. I've been accused of contributing to the "mommy wars" because I speak out about what I believe and it happens to contradict what someone has chosen to do. I've been told I'm being judgmental and snobby when I share about our lifestyle. I've apologized my way through different things, and sometimes rightly so. There are times for conversations and times to keep my mouth shut. There are people with whom I can have open conversation and others who don't accept different very well. But sometimes, I get tired of walking on egg shells in both my personal life and my blog. I've thought about the times when it's been the hardest to deal with criticism, and those were times when I was still a little insecure in my own beliefs. But now, over time, I've become confident in what I believe and feel comfortable sharing what I think.
It's still not easy. It's not easy to think about making bold statements and opening yourself up for criticism and judgement. I want to have a balance. I want to be comfortable being bold and different, but not so bold that all it feels like I'm doing is getting in your face. I wish every reader, and every person I come across, could see my heart. I think that could make the difference. They could see that I share from a place of passion and perspective, not from a place of passing judgement. That's hard to do when you're passionate, and that's what I'm trying to learn- how to write from my heart, be bold enough to write what I believe, soft enough to speak in love, and confident enough to accept the criticism that might come my way without apologizing for who I am.
That being said (with too many run-on sentences...), I've got some questions for you.
How do you keep original content on your blog?
Are there topics that scare you to write about?
Are there topics you think bloggers should avoid altogether,
or do you think "your blog, your freedom"?