Day 17. A favorite photo of yourself and why.
I have to say, there are not many photos of myself that I like. I'm not a master of posing, with my face or my body. I usually end up looking like I have to pee when I try to pose my body and my face will look distorted or better yet, like I mustered up a fake smile at the count of "three".
About a week ago, I was feeling kind of down about my failure to get on the fitness train after Noah was born. A mix of laziness and lack of motivation has left me wondering if I'll ever get to where I want to be. I had had a particularly long day that day with a teething baby, I hadn't put any make-up on and I was in less-than-attractive mis-matched shorts and a t-shirt when Michael got home. I just wasn't feeling my best and was having a pity-party.
I knew I needed some new pictures for the blog (hence the same shirt in my icon photo at the top of the page and the exact same photo on my "about me" page) and I was needing to feel good about myself. I curled my hair, put make-up on, whined about how I have nothing stylish in my closet, and finally got it together enough to feel comfortable. I reluctantly asked Michael to take some pictures for me and he obliged. He's been really supportive and encouraging about my getting back into blogging, and that feels good.
He was my test subject for the settings on the camera. Once I got the ISO and shutter speed worked out, I handed over the camera and stepped in front of the lens. He took quite a few pictures and the bloopers are terrible and hilarious, but of the ones that turned out, this one is one of my favorites.
I look natural, relaxed, and happy. It doesn't feel over-posed, but just right. I'm usually on the view-finder side of the camera, but every once in awhile it feels good to be the subject and feel good about the outcome.
Noah has dimples when he smiles and it makes me smile to notice mine in this photo and think that he might just have gotten them from me. This mini photo session helped me realize that I can feel beautiful and that it shouldn't be dependent on a number on a scale or society's standards.
I tend to critique every single picture I'm in to the point where I know I'm annoying everyone because I'm even annoying myself. I appreciate that today's challenge forced me to see myself in a different, more positive light. I think we need more of that, especially as women. We need to feel beautiful, even if we have a few extra pounds we're wanting to lose and don't look like the latest Vogue spread. We are women. We need to feel beautiful because we are unique,we are creative, we are loved by God, we are created in His image.
We need to feel beautiful because we are.